I have just spent half an hour holding a perfect, gorgeous, baby girl who is just over a day old. Babies are the best therapy. So amazing, so perfect, so full of hope. I sat and listened to her parents talk and held their darling baby and then handed her over to her Grandmother when she arrived. What a privilege, what an honour, what a glorious start to the day.
I am at the same hospital where Daughter Number Two was born and memories assault me at every turn. The room my young friend is in is two rooms along from where I spent a week with my own little girl. Tomorrow I leave again and it hurts.
I am heartened though by the time we have spent together. The bond between us is unbroken, as it is between my three surviving children. Through distance and time love remains. And for me that counts.
It is not a perfect world. It is not a perfect life. I am patently imperfect. That my children know I love them, after all that we have been through – THAT is perfect.
My bags are packed, I have checked in. In about twenty four hours I will be leaving. Baby’s grandmother this morning asked where I was off to. When I told her she said ‘holiday?’ And I said ‘No, I live there.’ And that is the point entirely. That is where I live.
I was shopping with Daughter Number Two today when who should pull up beside me but Barry. My dearest Barry, my favourite cab driver. He’d spent six weeks touring China and has not even been back in town a week. I didn’t think I was going to be able to connect with him but there he was. He complimented me on my weight loss, twice. He’s smooth, our Barry! But he was genuinely thrilled to see me and genuinely pleased I was looking so well and we caught up on each others lives and left each other smiling. It was very cool. Unexpected and simple pleasures. Take them where you can find them, my friends.
Travel safe x
I said goodbye to Son Number One today. Actually, I said ‘See you next time!’. I have said my last goodbyes to my Nana. Over the next few days I will be saying goodbye to Daughter Number Two and my dear friends. That will also be ‘See you next time!’ for as you know I am the eternal optimist.
In his first interview on his first Monday in his new state my Young Friend got a job! A new beginning. And as I write another young friend is in labour, about to have her first child. A very brand new beginning. I am so happy and excited for them both.
There is much that awaits me on my return, both business and pleasure. Onwards and upwards my friends.
My gorgeous daughter number two is two years old today! She sings, dances, she is funny, opinionated, and kind. She is beautiful and clever and I am so very very blessed to have her in my life. She is her own person more and more and not a baby any longer.
Her determination and strength of will have been noticeable from birth. She arrived exactly a month before her due date- which was pretty accurate as I knew when I’d conceived. I only had one hour and fifteen minutes of contractions before she flew out. She still knows how to make an entrance! She has brought so much joy to so many people, she is a magical child, a true gift.
Daughter number two has no concept that today is a special day for her, but she has greeted the day with her usual joie de vivre. It is a trait she shares with her elder sister. Although the weather is grey with storms forecast the outlook is good for fun and chocolate cake!!
I have pulled myself up and dusted myself off from yesterday. Before the day was out I had managed to get out of my pyjamas and go for a walk in the bracing wind. I quite like the wind. I find it exhilarating. It literally blows any cobwebs away.I love the feeling of my hair streaming out behind me like ribbons on a kite. It makes me feel alive!!
I also connected with my current person of interest which helped as well. He emanates calm. He is an oasis of peace in the chaos of my world. It is a very attractive quality of which he has many.
My Nana is settling in her new home well and although I had very vivid dreams there were no nightmares that I remember from last night. Although I am still a bit shaky I am still standing. Today is a good day!