Time to crank up the Eminem and run. For a lot of reasons it has been a long week, with more than a little frustration, mostly with myself. I am not where I want to be. Not in any sense. Constantly fighting against the tide that threatens to overwhelm me is exhausting.
My lovely Barry, he says “Just do what you need to do and go Kate. You just have to get through this next bit, and it will get easier. Just do what you need to do and go. Just go.”
Barry is right, as always. I’ve just got to keep putting one foot in front of the other until I get to the other side. And then I’ll be gone.
I came across an amazing blog a few weekends ago by a talented writer called Lori. She articulates everything so beautifully; it is awe inspiring. Although much of what Lori has to say resonates with me it was this post http://www.rrsahm.com/2011_02_27_archive.html in particular that blew my mind. That place, that is how it feels to me. That’s why I’m going. I just need to be somewhere I can breathe.
Today is World Suicide Prevention Day. Malcolm, I love you and I miss you so much, each and every day, and always.